星期四，2008年10月23日，雨，晚间11点16分

For past few days, my primary cum secondary school ex-classmates managed to find me thru Friendster. I seldom use it, cos all my friends are using FB. Friendster was created by my friend long ago. Actually, i do not want to be contact and contacted by my ex-classmates in Indonesia. Except one of my very very good friend Essy but too bad she is not IT savvy so we only sms or call occasionally. I really missed her a lot. But now she become a very devoted Christian, almost every year will go to Israel (Palestine). I am puzzle too. She is my only real friend i have from Primary 1 till High school final year. But it is also almost 10 yrs we never meet. Well, talk to these group of friends that manage to find me via FS, in fact they all my 'enemy'. They was the people like to look down on me and sneer at you. That's y even i went back to my hometown i will not bother to meet these 'friends'. Unfortunately, one of my friend who is currently working in Osaka found me thru FB so she also contact me thru FS. Anyway, Rita was still ok with me. But i remember, during my secondary time, these 'friend' were in group and like to mock at me. If you ask me who that u hate the most during your school time i can name out her name is LILI TIO. She was really a damn Fxxxing queen that like to bully her classmates, especially me.

When i was in Indonesia, my mum teach me to be more thrifty, so i never dress up nice and sexy like them. Back in that time, i admit i was an ugly duckling in the school (fat with big spectacles). Till my high school time, no one will really chase me. Only one guy, who was very nice person and very nice to me. Each time he came to Singapore for holiday he will buy me a little gift. Well, that time we were only 14 yrs old (consider puppy love). Finally i managed to get a quite good result to enter to public high school (in my home town is consider a prestige school). I did very well on the last 2 final years and graduated with good result. Then i came to Singapore and study in Singapore Polytechnic. But i need to sit for English test before i can entered into SP, i managed to pass my test, that is also where one of my greatest regret that will never erase in my life. My maternal grandfather who love me the most since i was baby, passed away and no one contacted me because of my exam. All my family members know i will sure give up everything and send my grandpa last journey. No matter how success i will be in my career, this wound will never be healed. Well, back to my those damn ex-classmates. They see my profile and photos in FS, keep send me message to ask me and i can tell how shocking they are. I admit i have changed a lot. From a very pure and innocent girl become an ambitious woman who love branded things a lot (though i have not buy any branded anymore). But i never thought of revenge by sneering back on my ex-classmates that still stay in my home town such, i never know are you carrying a genuine LV or tell them that my ring is from tifanny etc, such show off words. One of my friend told me to do that when i got a chance to mit any of them. I find is bo liao. Each leading their own life, why i must be bother by them anymore. Just one things i do not want them to know how my life is becos this is my privacy and i do not want to be their conversation topic (full stop).

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This afternoon i received a phone call that say there will be something sent to me and ask for my address. I thought is the insurance company going to sent some documents because they never said from where. So I asked them to delieve at evening to my mum's place (commonwealth) cos now i am preparing exam so mostly i stay with my mum. My new condo has no study table and i hate to bring so many things there. Suprisingly when the courier man came, i was surprise to receive a big bouquet of colorful flowers with a doggie soft toy. When I looked at the card atached, i am so surprised it was belated house warming gifts from James. In fact i feel so bad, because i have not even invited him to my new condo. On my house warming day, it was purely ladies night (all my poly good friends and girlfriends). That's why i did not ask him along because i was worried it would be awkward since is all girl. Last time i suppose to invite James and my sister Jessical to my house, in fact i have prepared some food, but last minute i had very high fever. Tonight, I am so happy and it really brighten my nights after buried by books for so many nights. Well, after my exam, i have plan dozen of things to do. Of course of one them is to invite James to my condo, hope Jessica can come along as well.

This is the link of my photos taken with the gift from James :-)http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=66505&l=bf0b0&id=759477362


Oh my god, now is already 24 Oct and i got online test (15% weightage) on this weekend, havent study!!!!